Mirror mirror

I've been looking into the mirror recently and wonder who it was that was staring back at me through the glass. Today at 5 am I realized exactly who it was and I wasn't quite sure how to feel about it. Throughout the last year of my life I have had no clue who was there looking at me, who would care so much as to see what I was doing and why does he always look so.. unhappy. Well here I am looking into that mirror and for once he doesn't seem so unhappy. Like something that will happen on this day will change that I feel anticipation as to what it could be.. In recent times i had lost who i was, what i was, i am no longer the person i was a year ago. Although i would like to be the person i wanted to be then and still want to be now. The person who could dream up almost anything as long as there was time to dream. A hero, hopeless romantic, a character in a story, every character i dream up only being an extension of what it was i wished i could be. why can't i be that person what force would stop me. the same force that bites at me even while i think of the words to complete this entry. Fear. "there is nothing to fear but fear itself" well fear itself can paralyse. For right now though i will through fear a right hook and tell him good day for i do not need him right now. What i realized when i looked into the mirror on this morning unlike any other morning is that without everything else that surrounds me on an average day i still like the person underneath. He still has potential, That man looking back at me still has a chance to do something if only he can muster up the courage to change what he is now and see who he is now. Well for this small moment in time i know who i am and for right now thats enough....